Agendas of the anxiety

Sleeping brutality cast off on the shore
Basilisk stare and deathly kisses
The diary of a Madman
Negotiation between overflow of insanity
and (those who think of themselves as)standing for normality.
Ur living corpse nightly visits me
the predatory male surface thru my blackened skin

Is this a sublime rebellion or simply a ridiculous complaint?
Is this an incident, a story or a romancè?
can my shoulders stand the burden?
the pain all in vain
Please someone! help me!

Sleeping spectre calm, stranded on the shore?
I´m waking alive and well
the inmates are running out the the asylum
I do breath, I´m free
out of angst! fresh grass!

and it´s me again, knocks my head
pulses up a dead end.